Saturday, October 8, 2011

সেই পুজো







ঢাক এর আবাজ , সূর্য অস্তমুখী
আজ মায়ের যাবার পালা...
ছোটবেলার সেই সারি পরে
পুজো তলায় যাবা
মেলা , ফুচকা ঝালমুড়ি ,
বিকেলে শিল্পীদের পরিবেশনা ,
না খেয়ে রাত জেগে
সন্ধি পুজো দেয়া ...
কত কিছু মনে পরে ....

সঙ্খবাদন প্রতিযোগিতা ,
আরতির উলুধ্বনি
কিছুই তো পাল্টায়নি
শুধু প্রতিযোগী-রা আলাদা ...
আর অন্য আরেক দেশ ....


শরত কালে এই মাটিতেও
কাশ ফুল হাসে

আরতি নাচের ধুলোভরা মাটি
আজ হলো বাস্কেটবল কোর্ট
ঢাকি আজ পাল্টে
হল কিছু বন্ধুগণ
তবে , বাদবাকি সব এক ....


আজ ও সেই পুজোর আগের
আনন্দ উদ্যোগ
ধুনুচির ধোযাঁর মাঝে
প্রতিমার মুখের দিকে তাকিয়ে
সেই এক শিহরণ ,
সিঁদুর খেলা রক্তিম কপাল
আর চোখে খুশির চমক ,
ঢাক কাঁসর-এর তালে
আজ-ও সেই আত্মহারা নাচ ....

--- সুচরিতা

Friday, July 8, 2011

Back to you ...

11th June 2011.... Apart from marking my parent's 30th anniversary, this day holds another special significance for me. It was the culmination of two months worth of fighting off loneliness, struggling through various decisions, and the insufferable pain of being away from the person you most want to be with.
It all started with the husband taking up an overseas trip, which could not be delayed any further. With that, started the madness to shop,pack,unpack and then pack again until his flight to US of A left the Calcutta airport. The following couple of days saw every member of the family working up to cope with the feeling of not being able to see him for quite some time.  
I started searching for some position at or near Irving,TX to be with RS. Ironically all the openings matching my profile chose to be far far away, around the north-east coast area. After debating with RS and thinking and re-thinking for few days about options of him relocating to those areas, I realized I needed to make my goal clear. And there it was, everything started falling into its place. I found that if I were to take up those jobs, it would be a couple more months or even a year before I get to be with him while on the other hand if I wanted to stay with him right away, I would most likely need to leave my job.
After weighing my options for a few weeks, resignation seemed like the only option as all I wanted was to live with my husband ASAP.So I thought of going ahead with that.I chose my family over my career. Does that make me any less hard core or non-career-istic? I dont know and neither do I care! I just know this is what I want and this is what will make me happy!
As fate will have it, out of no-where I got an offer right near the husband's location. However, the profile had no link whatsoever with my domain and ignoring my 6 years of experience ,I took it up. This was harder than resignation, as I gave up doing something I had come to love in these 6 years. But what made it easy was the moment, when I saw him waiting at the Dallas-Fortworth Airport for me, with a bunch of the most beautiful flowers and chocolates. The moment, was a silent witness to my moist eyes, as I realized I was finally with him and as of that moment, we were together again!
 

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Desires... Wants... Needs... and our Being

'As tough as wanting something can be ... the people who suffer the most are those who don't know exactly what they want...'  or so says Meredith ...

Have you ever lain on snow, full length, limbs sprawled ? I have...
 Its a great feeling...
Staring up at the dark night sky, from a white bed of snow, and just lay there... feel the bite of the snow, let the chill penetrate the skin and reach my bones, till they go numb ... and there is no cold,no pain, nothing.

We desire a lot of things, want some of them , but just don't need them all, at least not all the time.  But the thing we cannot live without, is our existense, the thing that defines who we are. It can be anything, our poetry, our parents, our kids, our car.... it can be anything. But it means so much to us that we know we will not be able to identify ourselves without it. And when it gets hurt, it hurts us. Sometimes breaks us.

We can forget about our unmet desires, can manage without our wants, can compromise without our needs but we stop surviving without our being.

It feels like falling into the water.... first we try to swim, to stay afloat and then after some time, the fight within us runs out. We try to find our happy place. We want someone to pull us out, someone to fight for us, someone to know us, to understand our being. And when we don't find that happy place, and when the person doesn't find us, we let the water inside us and there is blue everywhere. The sunlight moves further away as we keep getting pulled inside, waiting to save our being.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Shubho Nobo Borsho!!!(Happy New Year!!)

Nobo borsho jeno shobar jibone snigdha shukher alo protifolito kore!! (May the new year enlighten every life with happiness)

Shobaike Shubho Noboborsher preeti o shubhechcha! (Wishing every one love and best wishes on the occasion of New Year!) :)

Monday, January 31, 2011

Kudos to Decade 2K


As the last ray of sun swept over the bronzed skyline of December 31st 2010, it struck me that the most happening decade of my life was coming to an end.....









Just ten years back I remember sweating over fat books and thousands of sample papers ,preparing for std.XII Boards and when I got through with it, the anxiety of not being able to get into a college started setting in. And then, that day at my Granny's place Baba called me up asking me to take the first train next morning back to Bokaro. We were going to Vellore the next day to get me admitted to Vellore Institute of Technology and out of nowhere I was pursuing Chemical Engineering.

The next four years were probably my most exciting four years ever. It is great how some people and a couple of incidents  impact you and change you forever. I have had the good luck to meet such people and be their friend. I have always been shy while making friends and hence the very small number. While at college I added couple more people to my list, and we kinda became a family. First time out of home and living independently away from family, it was a totally new experience. Exciting!!  In these four years, I discovered myself. I found out for the first time how much I enjoyed breaking rules. Along with my buddies, we used to cook up numerous mischiefs and then charge our brain cells trying not to get caught. Late night sneaky birthday parties, Holi celebrations at 3:00AM in the common bath, bursting crackers in hostel, setting up home theatres in our rooms, rain dances, Indo-Pak cricket matches, Durga puja tours, Bokaro Alleppey journeys and the list goes on... I miss those days!

We met and mixed with different people from various parts of the country and with all our experiences, I started seeing things in a different light. The typecasted mindset took a break and a very liberal me started emerging. "Rights" and "wrongs" lost their face value and got reasoned out. Giving someone the benefit of doubt seemed better than dishing out judgements. I started believing that I would rather like to try something and fail, than to not do it just because all say its difficult. I found the spirited me, and it was my most important finding this decade..... and then I found someone special, in my best friend, whom I went on to revere as my most significant half.

After four incredibly adventurous years we left college with a degree and lots of memories, to set foot on the corporate land. Cognizant Technology solutions became my first company to join and through the rest of the decade I stayed loyal to it. Various projects took me from Chennai to Kolkata, and then through New Jersey, Ohio and Nebraska, back to Kolkata.


My stay at Kolkata after just being recruited seemed a bit dull, after the active college years, but it did get me few more friends and numerous unforgettable memories. We had our fun and then I went on to check out the magical dreamland of the United States.

Going onsite (to America) was an obsession at that point for me. I had always dreamt of seeing the other half of the world and its people, but more than anything, I needed the money :D ! But when my plane landed on the snowy whitelands, I didn't find it anything different from my land in India(except the snow of course!). I dont know what I was expecting, but the place or its people did not come as a surprise to me (yes, they had the general two eyes, one nose, one mouth, two ears, two hands, two legs and one heart! ). Dadabhai drove in to my Candlewood Suites on the day I reached to spend his weekend and I got comfortable in USA. I made some very good friends and visited most of the United States (around 25 of the 50 states, not bad! ;) ).


 I had loads of fun parasailing, rock climbing( not professionally!), long driving, bungee jumping and so on.I fell in love with the country, its long stretches of green grass, empty roads, clean air, deer and rabbits walking up to my doorsteps, geese cackling outside the office, undulating golf courses, fiery falls and colourful springs.





 After my short, yet eventful stint, I returned to my country to start the most important project of my life, my marriage :) ! The wedding of my dreams was followed by a trip to the Paradise on earth!










 I started beautiful new relationships and six months hence, with a full-family-fun-filled Christmas at Mandarmani, the decade came to an end.










And as the new day, new year, new decade started, I could hear the old one whisper in my ears.....


'All these days that we have spent,
through thousands of moments that came and went,
We've seen each other revel in smiles
and spent starry nights gazing skies....


I have heard your whispers,I have seen your dreams,
and come sad times, have shown you other realms...
I have read to you, the stories we wrote,
in the chill of the snow and the warmth of your coat...


We have those seconds etched in our minds
so here I am again to remind
Flow with me and I'll be there
as your friend forever to care and share'

Happy New Year!!!!! :)